Billie...i just cant believe its been a whole year.
i never realised how fast time goes, and how quickly everything is passing by.
life is so short, too short, and you only lived 14 years of it.
you had your whole life ahead of you, and it seems so unfair that it was taken in a heartbeat.
you deserved much more.
we deserved much more.
if theres anything i think about most before i close my eyes at night, its how much i wish you was still here.
but wishing wont help me now.
so i hope with all my heart that your happy, where ever you may be, and that your watching over all of us.
it seems like just yesterday that we were all so devestated and upset for our loss. although i try to fight it, i still cry sometimes.
i know you wouldn't want that, but i know i've come to terms with it, and that one day ill be able to think about you and smile at all the crazy things we got up to, and the memories we shared.
if theres one thing i want you to know, its that i love you, so much. i really do miss you. were all trying so hard to do things to prevent this from happening to other people. i know your proud of us all, but i only wish you was here with us to do all of these wonderful things for charity.
im sure you loved the showcase, it was wonderful despite how unprepared it may have been.
we all pulled together for you.
its true, "you dont know what you've got until its gone"
i hope you know just how special you are to each and every one of us.
i wrote this poem for you a couple of weeks ago.
it's quite personal but i'd love you to see it.
Tell the rain not to fall.
Tell the trees not to stand so tall.
Tell the sky not to be blue.
It’s like telling me to stop missing you.
Stop the sun from shining so bright.
Stop the day from turning to night.
Stop time from moving too fast.
It’s like stopping me from remembering our past.
Tell me not to wish upon a star.
Tell the rainbow not to be so far.
Tell the spring flowers to stop growing.
It’s like telling my tears for you to stop flowing.
Stop the moon from smiling down at me.
Stop a butterfly from flying free.
Stop my heart from beating so true.
It’s like stopping me from thinking of you.
Love something and throw it away.
Spell the words that you just can’t say.
Reach out for something you know you can’t touch.
It’s like telling me not to love you so much.
Lots of Love, Emma x Close